I miss you...

Give me a reason...
Why I'm feeling so blue?
Every time I close my eyes, all I see is you

Give me a reason
Why I can't feel my heart
Every time you leave my side, I just fall apart

And when you're fast asleep, I wonder where you go...
Can you tell me?
I would like to know...

Give me a reason...
Why I can't concentrate?
The world is turning upside down,
Spinning round and round...

Give me a reason
Why I now understand?
The beauty and simplicity of everything surrounding you and me...

You got a way of spreading magic everywhere
Anywhere I go, I know you're always there
It sounds ridiculous, but when you leave a room
There's a part of me that just wants to follow you too

Because I miss you...
And this is all I wanna say,
I guess I miss you,
These three words have said it all...

You know I miss you...
I think about you when you're gone,
I guess I miss you, nothing is wrong,
I don't need to carry on...

You know I miss you...
This is all I wanna say,
I know it doesn't sound too cool,
It's because I've fallen for you...

Operation: Birthday Surprise (part 2)

Learning to play the piano without any knowledge on it can be tough.
Learning to play the piano without any knowledge or proper coaching is even tougher
Learning to play the piano without any knowledge or proper coaching and with both hands previously had multiple injuries, that probably is the toughest.

But it is something worth enduring in exchange for a memorable birthday. It's part of the birthday surprise that I'm planning for Alicia on her birthday. Been practicing it bit by bit since last year... er... I'm not sure exactly when I've started it but it's definitely a tough skill to master, especially with historical injuries on both of my hands. I've previously injured my hands while I was still practicing Taekwondo. Sob sob.... I can still feel the pain on and off.

The tunes that I'm currently learning are Can't Help Falling In Love (one of her favorite song) by the the King himself, Elvis Presley & Forever Love (one of my favorite song) by Gary Barlow. To master these two songs takes a lot of patience, practice and endurance. Why I say that?

• Patience - I tend to rush the learning curves, eager to find out the end result.

• Practice - I tend to forget the notes very easily, so I need to practice over and over again to remember it.

• Endurance - The injuries on my hands relapses while playing the piano therefore requires alot of endurance to overcome the pain. As the saying goes, no guts, no glory...

Nonetheless, I hope to pull this one off. Hopefully, everything will go smoothly...

A Car That I Can Call My Own (part 1)

It's about time I should get a car that I can really called my own. Though my family has a Toyoto Vios at home, sad to say, it was heavily modified, all thanks to my little brother who doesn't seem to grow up and be more matured like any other 21 years old. So much for the "family car", driving it meaning getting into troubles as the car has so many illegal and stupid mods, I don't even know where to begin with. And because of it, my mom lose out the most. Paid dearly on the monthly installments but hardly get to drive the car. 3 drivers, 1 car, go figure on how we coordinate among each other to use it especially during the weekend.

To put an end to this stupid nonsense, I've decided to get myself a car, save the hassle of borrowing my Ah Kong's 4x4 or putting myself and my mom at risk by driving the "family car". For a start, I've more or less have decided on a car to get, a Metallic Silver coloured Perodua Myvi 1.3EZI. It is a compact and robust car, well suited for small family and in-town drive. I'm intending to get it somewhere around mid of the year, after I've received my bonus. Feel kinda excited and really looking forward to the day where the car keys are handed to me...

My soon-to-be first self owned car...

Memories of Yesterday...

Finally, it's Friday. Ever since I've started working full time, I've always been looking forward to the weekend where I can just rest, do whatever I feel like to and just forget about work. No matter how urgent work is or if the whole world might collapse on me anytime soon, rest & and relaxation is equally important as any other matters that goes along with life. Maybe that might explain why I'm such a laid back person... hehehe

Today, I've got to chat with Huey Fang, one of my secondary school friend. We've talk basically almost everything under the sun and somehow made me realize, I've come so far since I've graduated from secondary school and have been yearning to go back to those carefree life, no problems, no worries... just enjoying life itself and doing what I've enjoyed doing the best with the rest of my buddies, camping, backpacking, basketball, soccer, table tennis, LAN and video gaming etc. Though it's an impossible dream of mine and a fool's hope, but I really wish I could have a time machine to turn back time, going back and relieving my childhood memories and undoing the unhappy events in my life...

Operation: Birthday Surprise (part 1)

The date, 26th August 2007. It will be a day whereby I hope to give Alicia a memorable birthday celebration. I've been planning for it since.... er.... I've lost track since when I've started planning for it. Hehehe... But anyway, what matters the most are the things that I'm planning to do for her on her birthday. The things that I'm planning to do are:

• Dining
• 1st Birthday Present: Play a few pieces of tunes on a piano. Still looking for a place where it's opened to public to play. Tentatively, the only place that I know is the piano at Hyatt Hotel's lobby at JB. Currently still sourcing for other options...
  
• 2nd Birthday Present: At the strike of midnight, birthday celebration, fully loaded with birthday cake and present.

Initially, I wasn't sure of what to get for her but since I didn't managed to do or get her something special on her 21st birthday, I've decided to get something which she wanted... a heart shaped necklace.

This is the necklace that she wanted from Tiffany and naturally, I have gone down to Takashimaya to take a look at it personally. I'm surprised that the actual necklace is very, very small, with a very, very huge price tagged (SGD$2,500!!!). I can't possibly afford it. I still intend to get a car and further my studies. I need to look for other alternatives which is within my budget and at the same time, something that comes close to the necklace's design (hopefully can find an exact match). A fellowship was formed and the journey to look for the perfect necklace begins....

A Heavy Morning...

It's Thursday and unlike any other working day, I've met up with Cbear before setting off to office for work. However, I've noticed that as day goes by, her smile seems to fade away, little by little. Her work has been pilling up and I could really feel her stress from it. The never ending madness of reality, I really wish I could help her lighten up her load but all I could to was just keep her company while watching her struggle through it. Unable to do anything, my heart felt heavy for her...

It's a Scary but Sweet Night...

The date, 7th April 2007. It was a Saturday night.

Ever since my aunt sold off her 15 years old Honda Accord, I wasn't able to use my Ah Kong's 4x4 (Kembara). It means that I can't drive out anytime I wish to. It also means that Cbear have to go back to square one, stuck at home every weekend until I get myself a car. So sorry. Didn't see it coming. Sob Sob...

As I was saying, since I no longer have the 4x4, all I could do was just keep her company, watching movies at her place every weekend. On that very night, we've watched The Mummy & Tremor. Both of these movies had a few scary & shocking moments in their very own ways and I've got scared by some of those moments *paiseh* I got so scared till the extent whereby my arms and legs were flinging everywhere in the air. Feel so stupid, I know. Hehehe...

After the 2 scared fest back to back, my stomach as always, started to grumble. she made instant noodles for me as supper before going home. Though it was just a simple bowl of noodle, but it was filled warmth & care. The effort that she had put into it, I was very touched. A bowl of sweetness and happiness was felt in my heart that night

A bowl of happiness... =)